Lisa, a 45-year-old writer, poses for a portrait in her home in Massachusetts
Lisa, a 45-year-old writer, poses for a portrait in her home in, Massachusetts on October 13, 2012. Lisa says she became pregnant and had two abortions when she was in her 30's. The second time Lisa was pregnant, it was with a man who had two daughters and was in the process of getting a divorce with his wife. Lisa says she was off birth control for medical reasons. “I said 'you can't support what you have financially.' He couldn't support what he had. I ended up finding out I was pregnant and I said it to him. And he looked at me and he goes 'Well you know I don't know what to tell you, but I can't have another child. I don't want another child.' He said, 'It's going to be really damaging to the girls.' We had a fight in this house that I think they can still hear. … I was mad at myself for allowing it to happen. I just remember feeling disgusted and used and just hating him so much. … In that case I decided to have an abortion. He wasn't somebody that I wanted to be tied to. I felt like it was one of the stupidest things that I ever could have done. … I had put my reproductive future in his hands. And I trusted him with that. And he violated that trust.. It was almost unforgivable to me that I would get pregnant - that I would be so stupid to put myself in that same situation that I had just two years previously with someone else who couldn't commit, with someone else who was pathetic. And I was right back in that same situation. But I didn't want to be tied to him. And it was terrible and I hated myself for it, I hated myself for it. I hated how quickly I made the decision,” Lisa said. Picture taken October 13, 2012. REUTERS/Allison Joyce (UNITED STATES - Tags: SOCIETY)