Chaza Akik, assistant research professor at AUB, poses in her home, in Beirut, Lebanon July 26, 2021. "I was in the eye of the storm as they say. So I didn't feel, I did not see nor did I hear. Others saw and heard and for sure are suffering in a different way...After approximately three to four weeks after the blast, I insisted on going up to the rooftop... and I concluded that maybe I had amnesia and that my brain blacked out on purpose, to protect me, so I think my brain forbid me from recalling what happened but my body was still holding this memory and for sure it is a sensitive topic to be brought up to me...Now whenever I leave the house, I wonder if I should leave the windows open or closed, I feel the burden every time I hear a sound, the news about fires, or something might happen. There is fear". 38-year old Chaza said. Picture taken July 26, 2021. REUTERS/Emilie Madi